Monday, September 21, 2009

facebook is being really dodgey right now. anyway. no offence, but i ll never comprehend wads the point in giving ur groups of frens weird names, as tho u guys were a part of some weird music cheena group like 5566, but u guys dont sing or perform for that matter, or a feminine name for a group that includes guys, wth?! i admire the bonds of friendship that go beyond the boundaries of school life. but these names. just utter weirdness to me. lol. cant take it.

anyway. pretty much spent the weekend discovering
1) i suck at dota and i should spend less time playing it, which i did this weekend
2) indesign is a really interesting programme that i find suits me pretty well
3) when ur mind is pretty occupied thinking about stuff and ur switching between watching soccer and trying to play with indesign, its inevitable that u ll either miss some goals or miss some tutorial steps, either which does not really bode well cus of the limited time u have to do the latter and the fixed timings u have to watch the former, which brings me back to my first discovery, less dota
4) soccer is truly a juxtaposition of comedy, drama, thrills and the romantics
5) torres and his pace is truly [pardon my use of the word if ur reading, but the use in this case in rather legitimate] orgasmic
6) i think my ability to run long distances has dwindled
7) driving feels rather difficult for me, maybe some see it as relaxing, some see it as a form of solitude, escape, peace or exploration, i just freak out at the idea of being a road hazard. i mean like which cockster's engine stalls 6 times in one lesson, thank God i got better after warming up and went stall-less [no such word btw] for the remaining hour of the lesson

5 days outta camp. ended with dinner at my grandma's. sometimes she just cooks her previous day's leftovers or simple, not so extravagant dishes. but it doesnt matter i guess, as much of a foodie as i m. sometimes, as long as its edible, the company matters more than the food quality. back in camp. waiting for my next chance to clear another off. lol. i think i deserve it. i cant even believe i lasted this long in army. i swear, when i was in bmt, living this lifestyle that was forced upon me, i was thinking, i ll either snap, go awol or kill myself before the 2 years are up. some will say its my job thats making ns such a smooth ride. my job isnt exactly a smooth ride. but i thank God i have it. cus i m learning quite abit from it. it ll be interesting how i carry on with life after i ord.

i mean like ~20 - ~4 = 16. and thats pretty much the length so far that i have survived. i hope i ll continue to survive as life takes me full circle, back to a feeling and lifestyle i ll consider unfamiliar after having it different for the last ~4 years. and barker, i worked myself up to be a office bearer, council, i spoke and worked [ok, it did fall apart alittle at the end] and ended up an exco member. in army, small fry, sometimes kenna bullied, politics, kinda different aye. confidence, swagger, assurance, self esteem wise. to be honest, its fallen rather exponentially, which is why i m also rather resentful that we have to call some nsf officers sir, daily stroking their egos, putting them in prime positions to continue with life after ord. but i know after Sunday, my army experience [as much as i dislike it] happened for a reason and my rescue act is coming. i just pray it aint so fishy. haha.

ok. back to work tmr. to think that just 5 days ago i was having a good dining experience at astons. how time flashes by. hear the magic words in 6 months time. ORD LO!

|cowpoo| 11:13 PM|

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